Happy Easter loves ♡ .
"Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If I only I know what I know today
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Forgive all your mistakes
There’s nothing I wouldn’t do to hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you, but I know you won’t be there
I’m sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn’t do
Some days I feel broke inside, but I won’t admit
Sometimes I just want to hide ‘cause it’s you I miss
You know it’s so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this”
This song reminds mw so much of my daddy. It has been almost 3 years & I still just cant cope with the fact that I will never see him agaain. I will never get to hug or kiss him again & I realize how stupid every fight we had was. And I swear if I could ever do any of this again, I would just forgive and do it a I differently. I miss him so much that sometimes I feel like I cant go on. I’m just a little girl who needa her daddy but I cant have him. And it completely sucks.
If this aint the truth! I moved out at 18, have my own car, a bomb ass relationship. Live with mine. I may work 2 jobs and may be cranky sometimes but its worth it because I have my own. And I would honestly have this life over what yall low lifes think yall have. Grow up man.
I was really upset to just read that one of my favourite authors as a young teenager, Ned Vizzini, committed suicide yesterday. He struggled with depression his whole life and he wrote great novels for young people who felt alone, sad or unsure about their place in this world. It’s Kind of a Funny Story is one of the few books I brought with me when I moved, it had such a hopeful and optimistic tone about mental illness and that’s why I think I’m so upset about this.
I’m trying to put my finger on why I feel so unnerved by all this. I think it is because this was a man who fought a hard battle and wrote books about it that spoke to people who were also going through the same things and he ended up losing his battle. The problem with depression is it never really goes away, it just takes a sideline until it sees an opportunity to flare up again. It’s not fair.
I think the best way to honour Ned’s memory is to keep talking about mental health and keep talking to each other. The holidays are a hard time and please, be kind to each other. Don’t be ashamed to ask for help. Although Ned’s story has an unhappy ending, yours doesn’t have to. Here are some resources (feel free to add on):
- Suicide: 800-SUICIDE (800-748-3433) / 1-800-237-TALK, 1-800-784-8433
- Kids Help Phone: 1-800-668-6868
- Rape/Sexual Assault: 800-656-HOPE (800-656-4673)
- Self Harm: 899-DONT-CUT (800-366-8288)
- LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255
- Sexuality: 800-246-PRIDE (800-246-7743) / 1-888/THE-GLNH
- Grief Support: 650-321-5272
- Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696 AA/ALA (family & friends of recovering alcoholics): 888-4AL-ANON (888-425-2666)
- Domestic Violence: 866-331-9474
- Teen Relationships: 650-259-7136 Eating Disorders: 847-831-3438
- Post Abortion/Pro-Voice: 1-866-439-4253 Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386
- Runaway:1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000
#regram @cokebottlecurves don’t let these messages get y’all in a hospital bed today :) to all the jealous ones looking for reasons